Do you want to feel good?

I want to suggest a very simple formula for feeling good.  Especially now when social structures are being wiped away, economic structures are crumbling, must I go on?  Now, only the people with their hearts still open if only a crack, will get this.

KINDNESS AND PRESENCE = The formula for feeling good

You have to be present to notice 6 feet of distance from another person when you are out and about in the world.  You have to have a heart that’s open if only a crack. Notice the kindness there.  Above your mask you have eyes that can emanate kindness and others will notice it and feel that healing energy.

If you have heart, being kind and present fills you with a swelling of silent joy.  From there there is so much one can do to contribute to the well-being of other brothers and sisters from a different mother.  Doesn’t matter how big or small the contribution…

let your eyes smile out upon the world.  Now that’s a good contagion.

What you own, owns you

The Native Americans of North America didn’t even have the concept of owning the land or a house or stuff.  They were directly connected to Mother Earth.  They slept on the soil. They walked on the soil.  They honored their Mother.

Here is a video on “GROUNDING”



When negativity becomes an addiction it is the real virus that can infect love itself, creating more destruction and agony than any physical virus.  Humanity has been covered in this slime for a very long time.  The Corona Crisis is giving us an opportunity to go within and reset our internal GPS. As children of a Loving Creator we can transform our societies into loving creations of growth and positive change.  Let us stand in our light and our innate truth. Our power comes from our loving Creator.  Give  it away to no person, place or thing, no group, no religion. It is the forever spark of our being. Love and those beings and groups of beings aligned with Love will never ask for it.  Only those disconnected from Love will try to siphon off our energy and truth. Those that treasure their dis-connection always reveal themselves in time.  Be vigilant.  Stand tall, proud and sovereign as we treat others the way we wish to be treated. Know that we are infinite beings having a finite human experience, learning to prefer love and kindness over fear and control.  Let us return to Love and shine out a brand new way of being into our world.

Soul Code

Beliefs. What are they?  Simply, they are costructs of what we think we know. They can be brilliant and dull and everything in between.  But they are constructs of the limited human mind and can only hint at what is truly real. Thoughts and beliefs create our personal reality but they do not represent the Greater Reality of Unconditional Love. My inbox is now full and won’t accept anymore.  I used to give my power away to my beliefs, the shiny ones, the pretty ones, the holy ones, the ones that made my spine tingle, the ones that would float me in a “high”.  I used to give my power away to negativity because I thought it made me “deep”, “cool”, “hip”, a “rebel”.  I still roll in the mud of Debbie Downer-ness.  It’s such a darn habit.  But more and more, I withdraw and sit with what I don’t know.  It is not an easy feeling sitting in this not knowing.  But somehow I realize I am more than my thoughts and beliefs.  I am a unique design and this design is my truth, my guide, my purpose darting across the blank canvas, carving out my life.  And this higher knowing is part of my very essence waking me from amnesia and igniting the light of my life.  Meditation and walking in nature connects me ever so more easily to the Greater Reality of our existence.

So does having a soul family as a support system.  I know this is a hard time where many of us are isolated physically from our families, friends and humanity in order to contain this mysterious virus.  As much as I don’t like social media, it is connecting us now.

There are many beliefs about what this “thing” is and even if we should be social distancing.  Some believe the powers that be are trying to destroy the economy and take away individual rights.  I believe in time the truth will come out on this.

As I meditate on the positivity of my heart, I hit the delete button!


I send the fear, anger, doubt crap to the Recycling Bin.  The Big Heart of the Big Creator within will hug them back into wholeness.

Keep your mind open and free.  Don’t fall for any pretty little belief or one that reeks with truth or smells sweet like doom.

In your heart lies your unique design and as the heart beats you emit your unique soul code.  This code will open the doors you are destined to open to a life you are meant to live.



My Experience with Hollister Rand


Not everyone is ready for Pure Positivity.  Whenever I behaved badly and my history won’t lie, I said with a smirk, “Oops, I haven’t attained Christ Consciousness…doodily doo, la dee dah… Just go to Hollister’s Facebook page and see her latest portrait.  Yep, you bet.


I’m ready. I want that. 

I’m done with “learning through opposites”….dragging myself through the muck to appreciate the flowery meadows.  No don’t get me wrong…that works.  Playing the heroine and then the villainess…no it really has its value but really now, I’m ready to graduate and say “No, I’m not playing anymore.”  That rough ride has been the lesson plan on planet Earth for Millenia if not Billenia. 

I’m taking my responsibility for my part in everything. 

If anything comes up that I sense is negative, I will hug that orphan back into the purity of my heart.  Loving others begins with loving oneself and that begins with Self-Care and the realization that Love does NOT equal Pain.  We will all get to the point where we no longer need to learn through suffering.  Forgive oneself and forgive all others.  I’m letting myself off the hook.  Time out…forgot to take my vitamins.  Ok where was I?  Hopefully on a positive rant. 

My first experience with Hollister was a half hour reading I got from her over the phone on 09/20/2019.  I wrote the experience down in my journal:

“Before my Dad died, when he visited me in Walsenburg, CO in November of 2005, I asked him if he believed in Heaven.  He said, “I’ll tell you if I get there.”  I did a half hour session with medium, Hollister Rand.  She said I had always been super-connected to the Spirit World and I said “Yes, ever since I was a child.”  She said most of my relationships had been with narcissists and I said, “Yep, you’re right.” She said it was time for Self Care. “Yep, I said.”  Then she said,

“There’s this man, who is standing behind this glass sheet.  He says he is your Father.  He says that when he passed over, you weren’t there to witness it.”  (I started crying.  That’s true, I felt such guilt.)  He told Hollister that we had forgiven each other and he told her to tell me I had to forgive myself and that he would be in my life, looking after me. Then Hollister said to me, “Are you really close to animals?”  I said, “Yes, cats and a few dogs.”  She said, “There is this black and white cat who is here to be with you.”  God, this was my beloved Butchie who lived with me in Colorado and died there before I returned to Southern California.  Hollister then said, “He comes through the black and white cat you currently have now.”  THIS WOMAN KNEW THINGS SHE COULDN’T HAVE KNOWN.”

I was so blown away.  I am still blown away.  Other than leaving my body when I was 9 years old and meeting God, this is the most significant event of my personal life.  NOW I HAVE PROOF THAT THERE IS LIFE AFTER DEATH for our loved ones and beloved pets.  I am not afraid for them anymore or for myself.  Hollister also said that my Dad had a good sense of humor.  He sure did.  Yes, he sure does.  For all of you who read this, I highly recommend this pure vessel, Hollister Rand.  She is the catalyst that will have me following the path of unconditional love.

What is Ascension?

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True Ascension is going within,

diving into The Core of your Being

Have you flown in your dreams?

Have you soared and plummeted

only to awaken safe and unscathed?

When you leave your body

you enter a dimension

where atoms collapse 

You shrink like Alice

down the Rabbit Hole

into the Innerworld

but instead the illusion of rising into

a projected Heaven is experienced 

you are at the entrance of

the inner side of Source

The physical plane is a projection

a school house for souls to experience

in a land where darkness ignites the light

where we eventually prefer love over fear 

and truth over illusion

To reach the heights of Heaven

one must dive into the depths of the Heart  

to beat the Heart of God 

~Sydney’s Soul, Yen~