I’ll just make this short and sweet. “His Benevolence” just graced our Land of Cinders with his presence yesterday at a L.A. Firehouse. I watched it from my apartment in unscathed East L.A. A mixture of pleading for life and defiance permeated the space and yet Trump maintained his benevolent composure and spoke eloquently and with what felt like a light frosting of compassion. The Model sat beside him with a frosty dusting of approval. As I watched Trump’s conversation with Mayor Karen Bass and others and heard Trump say “I’ll give you everything you want”, my mind wrote a paragraph across my eyes:
Trump wants Cali.
Like he wants Greenland and Panama.
That’s why he’s playing nice, promising $ for fires.
He wants backup for his border plans.
After destruction Cali will be prime real estate.
Just like Gaza is prime real estate.
Just like Ukraine will be prime real estate.
He holds the Bible like a gun.
Own everything, even God.
Heaven is Prime Real Estate.
As I sit here watching Fox News, a piece of popcorn lodges painfully in my gums. The paragraph writing itself across my eyes continues:
Examining the projection will show us the Prime Inversion from which we spring.
The Soul lives within the flesh. It breathes it into being. This soul creates a colorful wardrobe of outfits it wears to explore and experience its essence. These outfits, this wardrobe is what we call the personality.
There is a bubble around the body, personality/ego, soul complex.
This bubble is a projection of your timeless Higher Self also known as
The Oversoul.
There is a bubble around the Oversoul, also known as Prime Creator or Source.
The body, personality/ego/soul/oversoul composite creates and projects in an outward fashion the lands of Creation.
The Oversoul is seen to arch into the timeless heavens but is actually seated in the subatomic soils of our true origins.
While embodied we see our awakening and enlightenment journey as an upward spiral, a lifting off many call Ascension. Others feel it as a shifting to a higher frequency.
When not embodied we live not on “the Other Side”. We live on “the Inner Side”.
The Inner Side is perceived as dynamic and physical. Our thoughts, intentions and feelings are instantly manifested. We have form there and can change it at any moment. Intentions and thoughts cannot be hidden. Communication is a blend of instant telepathy and heartipathy. We are one with each other but still retain our Soul’s unique signature.
Here the Soul no longer needs the wardrobe of embodied life. Here the Soul sits comfortably in the embrace of its Oversoul who is comfortably couched within the embrace of God Source much like Russian Nesting Dolls. As we disembody from the physical universe we sink along a counter-clockwise golden/silver spiral, an umbilical chord that leads to the sub-atomic Inner Side. Rather than being called Ascension, we coin this re-unification with the divine Inner Side, CIRCUMSCENSION. This is the inversion of which we speak. You go within. You go microscopic to touch the Face, the Body of God.
As channeled from the Beings of Light Through Liesel.
We say this to all of you who are experiencing sadness or loss or that which vibrates your body in a way that brings pain to you, we say this to you, this is the surface level of experience. As intense as it may feel at times, it is the outermost shell. It must be allowed and accepted and experienced in order to penetrate beyond the shell, and it is only during this pre-penetration process, this experiencing of the pain, it is only then that it seems so very overwhelming.
However, once this layer has moved through you, the depths that are within are essentially immeasurable and contain within them joy and peace and harmony that is also equally immeasurable.
The atoms of a human body, the atoms of a physical object are some 99.999999% empty space. That which is truly physical, truly contains mass is 0.0000001%. What this means is that that which you experience at the form or vessel level is this tiny fractional percentage. If this constitutes the totality of your experience, you will indeed experience suffering. However, if you have the perseverance to perceive beyond this tiny fraction, what opens up to you is the entire universe, is God itself, which is you.
All of this quote/unquote empty space is the binding God energy that connects all, is the love that connects and intertwines all beyond time and space. When you dwell primarily in this aspect of reality, which is truly the pervasive reality you experience true safety and true peace.
If you dwell and focus and look for your safety within that tiny percentage that constitutes physical form, that truly constitutes the mass or the form identity of physical objects, then you will never find the stability that you seek, for this small portion is always shifting and changing.
However, as all forms, all vessels are threaded onto the needle of unity consciousness, if you follow this thread, you will find your connection to all.
This underlying empty space, this underlying field of potentiality is the fabric made from the fiber of love. We are all cut from this cloth, and we will only find true comfort when we allow ourselves to experience this fiber, this fabric, this blanket surrounding us, enveloping us, giving to us the sense of wellbeing and wholeness that we so often seek in the external.
“Always know Our love is truly with you, because Our love truly is you.“
Liesel helps people all over the world transform their consciousness and lives through the workshops she co-teaches with her husband, Robert Schwartz. Liesel understands firsthand the powerful mechanism of transformation that intense life challenges can be when we allow them to crack us open. In response to her own intense struggles with severe obsessive compulsive disorder and depression, Liesel opened and surrendered to the depths of her being. The spiritual opening that followed led to her capacity to connect with Unity Consciousness (Oneness) and the loving, wise beings that reside in this state of consciousness who she and Rob affectionately call The Beings of Light. It is Liesel’s highest priority to share the profound love and wisdom of these highly evolved light beings with humanity in the messages, teachings, and meditations she channels. Liesel and Rob are thrilled to be currently working on a book based on many of the channelings. They are excited to share with the world the powerful love and insight that emerges from the sacred internal and eternal space where all are One. It is in this Oneness field within that we can all find the Truth of who we are as infinite unbounded love.
The Donald’s face flashes across the screen and for a fraction of a second, I catch a rare glimpse of authenticity.
His eyes soften. Do I see some sort of fragility?
The media is chanting Hilary’s most certain ascent to the presidency.
Am I seeing Fate write across the Donald’s face and that of the entire country?
Fate has a strong signature and I see strong writing.
Hilary is projected to be the ultimate winner. Even the Donald seems to acquiesce to the Hilary mania.
But for a fraction of a second, I see Donald light up like the Sun. Bing. Bing. Bing! Winner here!
The rest is history. He became our 45th president for better or for worse because as Fate would have it there is a reason for everything.
It’s July 13, 2024.
For a fraction of a second, he turns his head suddenly, possibly dodging a fatal bullet, only to rise like a phoenix chanting, “Fight, fight, fight! Fate seems to be alive and well.
October 25, 2024
So here I am feeling the new election out.
Will the Donald become our 47th president?
What do I see? Any softness is gone.
What do I hear? Women rising up to take back their power.
What do I smell? The burning bodies of Palestinian fathers, mothers, children. I hear the wails of the families of the Israeli hostages. I smell the fear of widening war.
Do I smell the curious scent of Fate here?
No. No, I don’t. It seems curiously absent. But maybe, just maybe it’s too early to catch a whiff of it.
What I am getting is…
It’s up to us now. We decide. Will the cult of Trump win this one or will Kamala, the woman of color, champion of re-productive rights and the rights of everyday men and women triumph?
In the description of the meaning of Fate, in the tiny writing at the very end almost imperceptible to the naked eye are the words,
“At the end of the day, Life is a Surprise Party.”
Yes, I know. It is curiously uncomfortable.
We’ve turned the evolutionary page on Fate, folks.
For any number of reasons, this may be a triggering post for some folks. Forgive me. Also, this essay may be a helpful companion.
Addiction owns two main qualities in my life.
First, I want everything to be more intense – brighter, faster, louder, deeper. I want the interior amplifiers set at eleven all the time. I want the stakes to be life or death all the time.
I cannot bear – I cannot bear – the ordinary, the pedestrian, the routine and the rules.
Second, a little less obviously, I do not want to be responsible. I don’t want to have to do anything that I don’t want to do. Everything should be given to me when I want it the way I want it. Only then will I be truly happy and free.
This is obviously not sustainable.
Recovery communities helped. Therapy helped a lot. Entering into a new, service-based relationship with God and God’s Creation helped, too.
But I did not really begin to face addiction nor undo its root causes until I began to study and practice A Course in Miracles.
More specifically, until I accepted and began to attempt to enact and embody the truth of ACIM’s happy dream.
Happy dreams come true, not because they are dreams, but only because they are happy. And so they must be loving. Their message is, “Thy Will be done,” and not, “I want it otherwise” (T-18.V.4:1-3).
I realized that my whole life had been dedicated to “I want it otherwise.”
When we live by the law of “I want it otherwise,” we are saying several things at once, each one of which cannot help but bring us – and others too unfortunately – to grief.
“I want.” The eogic concept of self is codified in this statement. Whatever happens is about me. My wants, my perceptions, my plans and my way. In any situation, all that matters is how I feel and what I want to do with those feelings. Stuff them? Broadcast them? Double down on them?
It’s my call. You and everyone else – up to and including Jesus and his unreliable Dad – are along for the ride.
“Otherwise.” Whatever life offered – whatever appeared – I judged against it. There were too many rules, too many requirements, the folks calling the shots were dumb and inept, the routine was stifling, schedules murder creativity, et cetera. Something was always wrong and, in keeping with the principle that I’m in charge, I refused to accept or be in relationship with any of it.
In the end, addiction is a way of refusing – of actively attacking – the healing potential of the present.
A Course in Miracles invited an accounting in this regard that made Steps Four and Nine look and feel like child’s play.
Addiction is a symptom of separation. It’s a symptom that can kill you faster than the disease itself. It’s a sympton that can take others down with you. If you don’t undo the underlying illness completely, then this deadly symptom will sprout again and again.
Addiction is effectively ego’s attack on God. Addiction makes war on Love. The war cannot be won but lifetimes can be lost fighting it. Lifetimes are lost that way.
I am not speaking hypothetically.
When I began to take A Course in Miracles seriously (long after I first started studying and practicing it), two things happened.
The first was that I saw how ACIM was not perfect. It was not a scripture. It wasn’t like Moses with his tablets. It was okay to write notes in the margins or spill coffee on its pages.
The course was simply the collaborative effort of two people – Helen Schucman and Bill Thetford – desperately trying to remember peace and happiness for themselves and leaving notes for those who came later with the same burning desire for a better way to resolve conflict.
In other words, I understood – I understand – A Course in Miracles as a prototype for ending separation by remembering oneness.
Prototypes are designed to be applied and changed. They’re designed to be flexible in order to adapt to new situations and challenges. They aren’t etched in stone, but sketched on paper in pencil. They’re meant to be interactive and permissive.
When I stopped worshipping the course – when I stopped insisting the course be the spiritual cornerstone of my living, over and against everything else – then my relationship with its content became less performative and public and more intimate and helpful. I saw its potential for healing and opened up to that potential in unexpected and life-altering ways.
The second thing that happened was that I realized I had been fucking around in the spiritual buffet line for way too long and that it was time – it was past time really – to make a decision. I had to make a commitment. It didn’t even matter to what. The act of committing – not the thing to which I committed – was the point.
So I did. Rather than say for the ten millionth time “I want it otherwise,” I said, “I guess I’ll try this, thy will be done.” And, not without a lot of bumps and bruises, false starts and wrong turns, whining and kvetching and griping, it worked.
What does that mean, “it worked?”
I mean that A Course in Miracles introduced a handful of extremely useful concepts to me – holiness vs. specialness, the importance of relationship, the vitality of the present moment – and urged me to not only become skillful in understanding them but also in – even primarily in – applying them. I learned that healing isn’t a thing I do, but a process I agree to be available for and, when it is offered, to accept it.
Let me say that again:
Healing is not an action that I take but rather a process for which I agree to become available. When it is offered, I accept.
I don’t set the terms, right? I don’t make conditions. I simply show up.
Healing is collaborative but my part is really basic: I just have to be willing to be healed. The course is very clear about this. I am not in charge.
Never approach the holy instant after you have tried to remove all fear and hatred from your mind. That is its function. Never attempt to overlook your guilt before you ask the Holy Spirit’s help. That is His function. Your part is only to offer Him a little willingness to let Him remove all fear and hatred, and to be forgiven (T-18.V.2:1-5).
Let’s break that down a little.
The most important part is the last sentence: all I have to do is offer the Holy Spirit my willingness. I have to realize the need for healing and be willing to be healed. It’s more passive than I like; it’s way less spectacular and dramatic.
But it’s not unambiguous.
It is not my job to remove fear and hatred from my mind – I can’t do that. All I can do is notice they are there in my mind, realize they are deviations from Love, and then – this is really really important – not run away from the resultant guilt.
Because I do feel guilty, right? Why am I such a defective child of God? Why did I piss away so many opportunities for healing? For contentedness? Why did I tolerate hurting others? It was so simple and I made it all complex and difficult. Why?
If I am honest, I feel like a disappointment to Jesus, to the Lord of Heaven and to the Mother of the Cosmos. I deserve to suffer and die. I deserve to be disappeared.
I hate saying that but deep down it’s the truth. Sooner or later we have to look at it.
Because it is in that space – self-convicted of crimes against God and nature, condemned to be crucified – utterly without hope for salvation, forsaken even by God – that the Holy Spirit comes and says gently but clearly, “Sean, you ridiculous beautiful goofball, you are forgiven.”
You are forgiven.
I’m not saying that this work is easy. Nor am I saying anybody has to do it. There are lots of ways to peace and happiness. I am simply saying that for me it was not possible to be happy until I was forgiven by God, through the Holy Spirit, with Jesus standing by as a kind of mystical sponsor. A Course in Miracles made that possible. My gratitude is immense.
Forgiveness is no joke. It is a real healing that we experience in bodies in the world. It’s a light that shines away the darkness and purifies the many sins and errors and blemishes we’ve cherished and collected over the years.
For me, forgiveness means that I no longer fear fear. I’m not afraid to be afraid anymore because I know that the outcome is sure. Love is the outcome – not in the future but now. I trust God; I trust you.
I desire this holy instant for myself, that I may share it with my brother, whom I love. It is not possible that I can have it without him, or he without me. Yet it is wholly possible for us to share it now (T-18.V.7:3-5).
I could say a lot about that prayer! I was born both curious and wordy. But mostly I want to remember that you and I go together and that our togetherness is collectively the site of healing, the means of healing and the effect of healing. Is it clear?
We are teaching each other how to be holy by having nothing else in our lives but holiness. Reality cannot be opposed, only accepted. I love you. And through our love, God.
Syd’s 2 cents:
This amazing post by Sean blew me away. I do not covet “A Course of Miracles” as my Bible I never question. I take what I like and leave the rest. I was addicted to being a ZERO-A ghost moving through life unseen, unheard, gaslighted, groomed to be SPECIAL by zero parents who lived in this flamboyant, arrogant, egotistical trap of societies in separation. Sean’s post is opening me to possibly, hopefully allowing my passage into true forgiveness, so I share this with you, my dear readers for your peace and upliftment.
The gurus didn’t go to sit in the meditation cave to enlighten their consciousness. They went there to bypass their issues with the world. They didn’t turn to silence to extinguish the monkey mind. They turned to silence to turn down the volume on their pain (the monkey heart). They didn’t nestle into stillness because stillness is THE royal road to the kingdom of God. They nestled into stillness because movement ignited their triggers and traumas. They didn’t dissolve the ego because the ego is the enemy of the sacred. They (allegedly) dissolved the ego because it reminded them of their unresolved humanness. They didn’t purify the body because the body is something less than Divine. They purified the body in an effort to escape their emotional toxicity. They didn’t strive for transcendence because there is a kingdom up there for us. They strove for transcendence because they lacked the courage to live on Mother Earth. They didn’t seek formlessness because it is our most awakened state of being. They sought formlessness because their form hurt too much. They didn’t shun anger because anger is a sub-standard emotion. They shunned anger because it uncovered their mountains of grief. They didn’t practice non-attachment because non-attachment is the essence of self-realization. They practiced it so they could hide from the challenges of human relationship. They didn’t fixate on forgiveness because forgiveness is necessary for a life well-lived. They fixated on forgiveness in order to repress the unforgivable. They didn’t preach non-judgment because they aren’t actually judgmental. They preached non-judgment so that they could get away with anything.
Friend, we have been fooled for centuries. The patriarchy went to a lot of trouble to cloak and camouflage their personal issues behind a wall of faux awakening. A whole spiritual lineage was birthed from their self-avoidance. And it is now time to call it all out. It is now time to bury patriarchal spirituality in a graveyard of its own making, and to co-create a spirituality that is grounded in our humanness, our bodies, our feelings, our relationships with each other and Mother Earth. This is the only way to save our species.
Note from me:
The heavenly realms we spiral down into. We circumscend within to access this sub-atomic vastness which is infinite awareness that can create spiritual forms in the heavenly panaroma we return to when we leave the physical world behind.
Our lives in 3D actually accentuate the spiritual worlds bringing the human touch to spiritual reality forms. Source both stays the same and reinvents Itself continually through us, through creation.
Many of the people on the autism spectrum from high-functioning Aspergers to the profoundly affected and low functioning are off world hybrids ranging from Star Souls incarnating in human form to engineered hybrids from programs where humans volunteer sperm and eggs. This includes those with Down Syndrome, the Savants and others chromosome-divergent. The neuro divergent actually play huge roles in grounding energetic grids and timelines and unifying separated/polarized consciousness with Source. These beings form the bridge for human consciousness to cross to come home to Source.
This bridge is the Eleventh Finger. This image has been flashed in my mind by Source. It is the illuminated road home, the Finger that points the Way. Many of these neuro-chromosome divergent Source Souls have Yods in their Natal charts. These “Finger of God” astro-configurations point to their mission of bridging humanity with Source. I am on the Autism spectrum and my daughter has Down Syndrome. We both have these rare Yods in our Natal Charts.
Every human has the potential to open the Source Portal within them for all of creation was born of Source. Come now to sit on the Seat of the Soul which is the Big Heart. The Big Heart is actually three Chakras: The Heart Chakra, the Soular Plexus Chakra and the Womb Chakra. Sit on this blessed Fulcrum of the Big Heart and observe everything and all with kindness. This Heart cannot hold ill-will. Rest in this pocket of supreme safety. The Heart Chakra beats the Heart of God-Source. The Soular Plexus Chakra embodies Source shining out forming your world and the Womb Chakra connects to the Earth Mother that births Source Light and Love through you.
The Bridge of the Eleventh Finger is never closed. It is open to all. But first you must begin the journey of re-connecting to the Source Portal within you which is this Big Heart pulsing Loving Kindness.
WE GROW GOD 