WE GROW GOD

I prayed for change,

so I changed my mind.

I prayed for guidance and learned

to trust myself.

I prayed for happiness and realized

I am not my ego.

I prayed for peace and learned to

accept others unconditionally.

I prayed for abundance and realized

my doubt kept it out.

I prayed for wealth and realized

it is my health.

I prayed for a miracle and realized

I am the miracle.

I prayed for a soul mate and realized

I am the One.

I prayed for Love and realized

it’s always knocking

but I have to allow it in.

~Rumi

By Syd’s Oversoul, Yen

There’s an energetic script, a guidebook that a Soul writes before it sends a part of Itself into flesh. It is a vibratory program that activates a human life, settling into the human DNA effortlessly and seamlessly along the meridians, timed perfectly as the flow of life proceeds from the pre-programming.  Your talents and abilities uncoil the Kundalini umbilicus that connects the Soul in Flesh to the Soul in Spirit. Up from the tail then bursting out the back between the shoulder-blades, a delicious excitement of tingling pulses out through the meridians opening “Soul Sight” in every cell, and you are spirited away!  A new FLOW sets up guiding you to experience that which elevates your sight and preferences. When the energetic script activates, the nervous system may bristle and burn. (Syd asks, “Is it like a foot that has fallen asleep from lack of blood flow or the cold and then connects back up to its body?)  Indeed, it is.  You are grounding Spirit within the physical. At first being a lightening rod can be a little painful.

Syd has shown some fear of the virus you call Covid and the vaccines being developed to stave off injury and death.  Many believe that the Powers that Be, have caused this unleashing of pain, loss and death upon the populations.  Yes, but only a minority of them.  They hold the belief that they are helping Humanity. But actually in the greater scheme of things they are doing just that. Behind the plan of the Elite, is Source’s Plan.  As the elite are control freaks governed by ego fear, they let loose the Covid.  Little did they know that Covid has elements of the Energetic Script for Mankind within it that always programs a course aligned with the Greater Good of All.  Covid is offering humanity the experience to expand into forgiveness and compassion.  The collective Energetic Soul Script is allowing for great wisdom to be manifested within the evolving human. And unbeknownst to the controllers who are walled off from Source, Covid holds an energetic key to the upgrade of Human DNA.  Both Covid and the vaccines are SURPRISINGLY catalyzing this upgrade of humanity. The vaccines can lessen the severity of symptoms in the majority but conversely there are those who choose to leap back into Spirit from the infusion of virus/vaccine/underlying medical conditions.  DNA that is encrusted in the chemical chains of fear are upgrading, allowing the collective Soul Script to program unity and compassion into the organic fabric of humanity.  Syd complains of the hurting. As the wounds of separation from Source heal, yes, it hurts.  But as humanity acclimates to the Soul Codes injecting into it, the Silver Lining will emerge for all to see. Humanity won’t go back to “normal”.

THE FLOW of every beloved, human life is being guided by Soul signs and synchronicities. Covid is assisting the evolving human transit through densities and dimensions. Root yourselves in nature, music, dance, yoga and meditation. Here in the Eye of the Needle, you will miss out on nothing. Whether or not you stay in body with this undertaking, you are safe. You are always where you need to be.  No one gets left behind.  All are honored.  We are witnessing the human progression into spirited flesh without fear.

A message from Syd: The Ego Mind will freak out with all of this. It will try to think its way out of this but it can’t.  The fear comes from this mind, the mind that believes it dies when the body dies. It cannot sense Source.  It will send an endless cascade of fearful thoughts racing at you like daggers, whips and lacerating flames. The more you stay with your breath, breathing in the Soul Pulse of Peace and breathing out anything that isn’t, the closer you will come to witnessing the return of Ego to the wholeness of Spirit. You can dodge these racing Thought Storms by staying with your breath.  Your Soul’s Energy Script is guiding you to a space of radical forgiveness where Fear’s Dream dissolves and we become stars reflecting off each other.

Every political party

has a Pied Piper.

They will ask for your

power and your loyalty.

Wear ear plugs.

 

As a child I was really shaped by the idea that I had to be “special” in order to “be” someone, to be worth something. That is the hardest story for me to shed. My mom groomed my sister and me to be dancers, to be mini me’s of herself. Both of us excelled at ballet, modern dance and jazz and I ended up dancing in the Paul Sanasardo Dance Company. I was able to let Spirit dance through me. When you do that you are no longer a body dancing. The energy transforms you and dazzles and electrifies the movement. One night while I was dancing at the ANTA Theatre on Broadway in 1972, after the show, Robert Joffrey walked up to me and told me he liked my dancing. He was the director of the highly acclaimed Joffrey Ballet Company. I didn’t know who he was at the time but my sister standing next to me knew him as she took classes there on 6th Avenue from his studios. After he left, she said to me: ” Do you know who that was? That was Robert Joffrey. He never tells dancers that.” Her mouth dropped open and stayed like that for awhile. I was still in a coma from a grueling night of transforming into an “energy werewolf” and tearing up the stage.

Later, I said to myself, “Oh my, I’m really in my element as a dancer.” I did find my Spirit Core as a dancer. Long story short, I was only 17 and 18 when I danced professionally and didn’t get a lot of support from the other dancers. One day, on summer tour, a fellow dancer and director of the company raked me over the coals for being late to help her teach a class. It was a brutal experience probably because most of my young life was brutal due to child abuse fueled by alcoholism. I went home, gained a hundred pounds and never returned to the professional stage.

The Story that still is so hard for me to shed is that of being “Special”. My wounded self tells me to this day that I am no-one if I do not make myself special in some way. This story is hideously heavy.

I don’t want this story anymore. My mind tells me that all people are special in their own way. The wisdom of higher mind tells me we are all equal. But my wounded child comes to me with blood for tears telling me she is a zero. I hold her in my heart and she finally relaxes. (The weeks in the hospital when she was only 6, blind from an eye operation with no family, in Switzerland where nurses spoke French above the bandages speaks volumes.)

As a child I knew the freedom of flying through the air over the earth, up in the clouds when I dreamt. I want that when I’m awake.

Can you live without stories?

After I left the professional dance world, I wrote a poem called, “The Light Filled”. I then tore it up and don’t remember the contents.

But I know this. I want to fill with light and I want to see that in the World. I want to see the Light fill everyone.

Can we do that without making stories out of experience?

Just all of us living life without a story line. No winners, no losers, no heroines, no villains. Or maybe we can just ride above the story line, not making anyone wrong or right, good or bad. I have to laugh. I think that’s because stories here on Earth bounce you off the good, the bad and the ugly for a reason. When we suffer our hearts open with a higher form of feeling called Compassion for self and therefore for others. We are no longer just a lone wolf. We are a pack, a tribe, a We-ness. A We-Ness, not a lonely zero within the vastness of existence. We are the We-ness within the Oneness. One for All and All for One. Here we can begin to prefer a level of detachment from the drama, to respond with love and light rather than the knee jerk reactions of emotional responses we have been implanted with since birth. Can we begin to treat each other the way we wish to be treated? Can we see past the pain of a traumatized humanity to relinquish those thoughts, beliefs and fears that lead to a deep unkindness?

If we can detach from the ingrained programming of control from governments, institutions and religions hell-bent on subjugating the human life force we can begin to evolve into a safer and happier world.

I’m beginning to feel a cool breeze on my face as my legs disappear into the flying bullet of my body, a streak of light, a bursting of joy as I fly through loving thoughts posing as clouds.

Do viruses upgrade us spiritually?  When I got the Epstein-Barr Virus at the age of 39, my life was changed forever.  The natural strength of youth went kaput.  Muscle pain, migraines, brain fog became an everyday thing but something else changed.  I began to earnestly ask questions about the wisdom that always tried to sprout and grow inside of me.  I was too tired to decapitate the spiritual sprouts that would spring from me and there you go, through the maze of fog and pain, I started to again re-connect with my Soul and other Souls. I started to feel REAL COMPASSION for others through my own suffering.  I read a lot of books from different spiritual sources.  I took what resonated with me and left the rest.  I outgrew a lot of stuff and adopted new stuff.

Then along came Covid.  This is a bit different.  Epstein-Barr usually doesn’t kill a lot of people.  It gives you Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and Fibromyalgia for years and decades but it doesn’t kill you except for a few exceptions. So when I got Covid a day after Thanksgiving here in the States I said to myself, “Really?”  Don’t you think I’ve been tampered with enough?” I guess I needed another upgrade?

Would death be a part of it. No, I don’t think that’s in my cards but ya never know. It’s almost been a month now and now I have new neurological symptoms: vertigo, dizziness, nausea and some vomiting so the Doc said he hopes the Post-viral Covid Syndrome doesn’t last a…..long time.  Deep in my Soul I know that death is a natural upgrade for the human life.  And viruses are natural upgrades to the Soul during the human life. Do they affect DNA and if they do, is this an upgrade? I believe so. I believe that Love wills Life to upgrade. A pandemic can affect all of humanity showing that rich and poor, abled and disabled are equally affected, brought to our knees in humility.  Showing us that we are all affected.  No one gets an “out of jail free” card.

We are equal.  We are One. So here I am typing away on the Winter Solstice and tonight is certainly setting up to be stellar.  The conjunction of Saturn and Jupiter is upon us soon after sunset.  It will be bright and big.  Apparently both Saturn and Jupiter entered Aquarius this last week so I believe we might be in for a showdown. There are some that say this conjunction is the Star of Bethlehem or the Christmas Star.  And since Christmas is just a few days away I can’t argue with them.  Here we have an upgrading virus that makes it so that there is no NORMAL to return to after all is said and done.  And so what is ahead of us in the skies of Aquarius?  Peace and Understanding?  Sympathy, trust abounding…

Treat others the way you wish to be treated.  Love thy enemies…

The time is Now.  If not now, when?

On November 30th I got tested and yesterday I found out I was positive. We are a multi-generational household and everyone came down with Covid. One member is a front line healthcare worker so it makes sense that this could happen even under the best of conditions. Living in Los Angeles where the the cases are exploding puts so many at risk.

So far, so good.

I have significant fatigue, tremendous body aches, loss of taste and smell, runny nose, sneezing, no fever, chills, diarrhea, confusion, sinus congestion, sore throat, some upper respiratory congestion. It’s been 6 days since symptoms started and I just try to keep on moving through the day and sit down or lie down when I can’t stand.

I’m 66 with no underlying health conditions except for hypo-thyroidism and fibromyalgia so that’s promising. I’m getting a little sick of talking about myself so I will move on.

There is a greater reason for the presence of this virus. It is a tool to bring out the best in us. This virus tends to break up all the chunks of negativity we’ve acquired over our lifetimes. It gives us the time and place to be quiet, meditate and ask ourselves very important questions about who we are and the nature of life itself.

This virus may have been instigated by climate change and small groups of humans who think only their kind are indispensable. But everything that happens occurs to grow the Greater Good. And that is never seen by small minded humans.

I see compassion flooding the world now. It’s roaring through the streets and towns of every community. This virus brings us to our knees in humility. It uncovers all the hidden agendas much to the relief of just about everyone even the ones who have benefitted through oppression on this planet because even being elite hurts and degrades after awhile.

As we put our heads on our pillows at night, we will dissolve into Universal Love Consciousness and float in the peace and when we awaken we will be just a tad lighter, less judgmental, able to see even the smallest of lights in those we can barely stand to be around.

I do have to say one of the symptoms of Covid is a big dose of compassion. For self and others. We might feel extreme indignation and anger at getting infected but that soon just drops away because it’s hard to take a swing at another when your arms don’t work anymore and the energy is gone.

Even if you don’t get Covid, you might be caring for someone you love with Covid or you are an open-hearted healthcare worker or essential worker putting your life on the line for others. These are huge heart openings happening now.

As my nose flings droplets onto this laptop’s keys, I can say this like a little toddler, “I forgive you, I forgive everyone. I love you. And I love everyone.” It feels so GOOD TO FORGIVE!

I am still having some problems forgiving myself for the times I’ve been stupid and an asshole. Now, that’s a hard one for me. But I KNOW that the stupid asshole has a holy role to play in our awakening as a species.

Source honors the Asshole and the Angel.

We work for Source and it ain’t easy, man.

From me in Los Angeles, to you all over this mighty globe, thank you for being here during this amazing time in our history.

Whether we end up back in our spiritual homes or we stay here on Mother Earth, WE WILL BE OK.